rambling child of God…

December 13, 2011

too busy…

Filed under: What Not — kim @ 9:45 pm
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Another long stretch between blogs…nothing new. Just wish I could be more regular about it.

So…I’m in the store a couple of nights ago with my youngest daughter. She was just being her usual talkative and active self. In all honesty I was getting a little irritated. The store was busy, she just kept moving all around the place and talk talk talk…

So we stop while I’m looking for something and she asks me, “Mom, what is your favorite part of Christmas?”

I hate to admit, but at that moment I wanted to say, “When it’s over!” That is a very sad thing to admit. But in the same moment I realized that life is just too busy. Too busy. Too busy! TOO BUSY!

I did actually get to tell her that I enjoy time with family. She agreed. My little one is really understanding the fact that Christmas is so much more than gifts. She’s still a kid, and of course loves the presents, and would likely be bummed if there weren’t any under the tree on Christmas morning, but essentially, she understands that this wonderful holiday is about our lord and savior, Jesus Christ.

There is a desparate need in me to be true to the holiday. So many years of commercialism during the “holiday season” is difficult to overcome. I want to have a Christmas where our family simply gives to help out others in need and share the message of Christmas. But then there is a part of me that doesn’t want to disappoint my kids. I got more than I needed many times and part of me wants to do the same for my kids, even when I know we can not.

And if it’s not the greediness that is portrayed all over the television and every store you wander into from November 1 on…it’s the busy-ness of life.

The feeling of Christmas just isn’t the same as it used to be…at least my husband and I feel that way. Granted, we have both lost a parent and that in itself is enough to cause a person to lose a little of that Christmas-y feeling. But with our jobs over the last 10 years have made it difficult to really take the time to have and be a part of family gatherings like we used to when we were both younger. Being around family is very important to us both.

With our very different work schedules, life is just hectic…getting our work days in…kids to school…playing taxi…appointments..etc. We never seem to have the time to just slow down and enjoy the season. My prayer is that life will just slow down some and we can take time to “stop and smell the roses.”

When I get to the end of my life and look back, I don’t want to say that I didn’t have time to enjoy Christmas or get more involved because I was just “too busy.”



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